I have a radical group of people around me. Period. I have kick ass friends and family. The BEST support system. In recent years I have come to realize I am richer in my relationships, connections, and love than any amount of money could rival. Lately I have been hanging out with my Aunt Toni in her craft headquarters, helping out. I have really come to enjoy this time. It is fun. I get to be creative. Get inspired. And I get to talk to my aunt and spend some quality time together. Time with my friends and family is better than any gift. What do you want for Christmas? I want you to do something with me? That’s it. Don’t stress about buying for me, spend time with me.
I digressed a little there, sorry. Really, what I came to realize today was an appreciation of the family of go-getters I come from. I am surrounded by people going for their dreams. Following their bliss. Doing things that make them passionate. When you dream big, though, you can be a little misunderstood. Their will always be critics, even within your family. Toni and I were talking about her repurposing/vintage work being her job now. I admire her doing what she loves. Being creative. Putting her all into her booth. Being creative is like giving up pieces of yourself. Not just your imagination, little pieces of what’s inside. What’s inside your head. What’s inside your heart. What’s inside your soul. Your energy, your vibration is embedded in what you make, sale, and give away. Do you know how vulnerable you make yourself? You are selling and presenting yourself to the world? Open for judgement. Open for Continue reading →
I just had a conversation of signs. That nothing is coincidence. People, events, things are all brought to us for reasons. The key is our own awareness. Someone important could be right in front of us. A new opportunity could be right at our front door knocking, but we have to see it. We have to accept it. We have to allow ourselves to take it in. If someone is talking to us and we’re thinking about we are ‘supposed’ to do today, we will miss it. Plus we are not connecting. We are missing the very person standing in front of us. Open your eyes. Open your heart. Open your mind. Allow. Allow. Allow.
Anyways, the day after this conversation, I am getting ready to do a round of tapping for some lingering doubts, when I look down and see this sign on the floor. Hello, how much more obvious can it get? Believe is the freaking word staring me in the face. Thank you!That is exactly what I need. I need to believe. Believe in myself. Believe in my dreams. Believe in the Universe. Believe my vision. Believe life is good. Believe I am taken care of. Believe I am loving. Whatever doubt I have, replace it with belief.
Let life guide you. Let it reassure you. Be open to signs. Be open to life. Be aware.
Okay so today is my birthday. What I have come to realize about age? It is irrelevant. It truly is just a number. It has nothing to do with how you feel. How healthy you. How wise you are. How experienced you. How much better you are. Just because you have been alive longer does not mean you have lived longer. It just means you could have had more time to be miserable longer. Twenty years of existing is not the same as 5 years of hard-core-I-can’t-get-enough-of-life, living. Give me 26 years of life love over 80 of anger. Sixty years of in a comfort zone doesn’t mean you have changed, grown, learned or truly gotten better. Trying to stay the same in the changing world just wastes time. Life is precious, why waste it?
My friends fear aging (they have declared they no longer have birthdays after the age of 25), I say bring it on. To me age now signifies opportunity.It excites me. To me it represents growth.I feel like I am on the verge of it all right and the potential and possibilities of the future years, make me giddy with enthusiasm. Continue reading →
This is my awesome sister-in-law Katie. She graciously sat down with me to share with me her thoughts and feelings about beauty (note: the knocking in the background is her twin babies who were excited to hear what mommy had to say).
She too agreed with all the other women I’ve spoken with: 4% sucks. Okay, so I think we as women are at the first step-awareness. We seem to ‘know’ to accept ourselves, but somewhere along the line we falter. We question and get tripped up. Katie says the media is a part of this. We feel good, our husbands find us beautiful, but something holds us back from that all-consuming self-love. We look in magazines and on t.v., and that little voice starts to unravel us. We are told, ‘that is beautiful.’ Well if that is beautiful, and I don’t look like her, Continue reading →
I open my Oprah/Deepak meditation to find this staring me in the face.
What do you want?
This question keeps coming and coming at me. Recently I read the Law of Attraction by the Hicks’. The same thing. We have to dig deep and ask: what do I want? What do I want from this life experience? How do I want to feel? How do I want to be? What do I want to create? Where do I want to go? Then once we know what we want we ask for it. Then we allow for it to happen. We trust that it is already unfolding, that we are taken care of. We keep our vibration up. Same thing, I am rereading the Tao one verse at a time. The first first says:
Each object tells a story and each story connects us to one another and to the world. The truth is, things matter. They have to. They’re what we live with and touch each and every day. They represent what we’ve seen, who we’ve loved and where we hope to go next. They remind us of the good times and the rough patches and everything in between that made us who we are.
Watching Nate Berkus on Super Soul made me think of the way we perceive things. Because even though I’ve simplified a lot, I still have things and the things I do have matter to me. So after I watched the episode I went to the library right away and checked out Nate’s book, “The Things That Matter.” Right off the bat I was hit with this beauty. It made me think of the space, the environment, the vibrations that we create.
When I was in Colorado my mom would go to my shed. She said she felt connected to me there. She could feel me there. The first time my outspoken friend Tab came in, she was silenced taking it all in, but the next time I mentioned it, she threatened me to never change it. Continue reading →
This is my sister. Growing up Amanda always represented the quintessential beauty to me. Everyone told me, your sister is gorgeous. It is true, but now like basically everything, my thoughts on this have evolved. My sister is still beautiful, but to me I see it in different ways now. To me my sister is stunning when she let’s go. When we’re having fun creating. When we are working on a project or craft, taken over by a vision, something for us to create. To me she shines most when she is with my nephews. When I see that little vulnerability. A spark of pride. A genuine smile and play filled with laughter. When we’re all caught up in sheer joy, by Trenton or Gavin putting on a performance (which they have quite a knack for). The sole woman in a house full of growing me.
In her interview I heard a lot of the same things I’ve been getting. We are taught to believe that beauty= skinny. I like how she brought up the expectation to look like an unrealistic Continue reading →
What I have learned: in love you can fall for anyone, it doesn’t mean they’re the ‘right’ one (ie your soul mate). Same thing with a job. You can do or even like any job, it doesn’t mean you need to make the commitment leap. It can provide great learning. You work their for a reason, but it doesn’t mean you have to marry it. You learn and you realize you can change. We so often view success in stability and job security, with pretty bi-weekly pay checks and retirement funds. Why can we not date around in the job market, check out different types, truly discover our passions?
I am building dreams, I am creating my businesses, working on my brand. Slowly, but steadily it grows. My job at the hospital has helped me with this. I like the hospital. But intuition hit me: STOP. And so I went with my gut and I put in my two weeks. The same day I see a local restaurant standing out like a beacon. So I quit and put in an application at the same time. I do it immediately, act on the instinct. I walk in ask for a form, fill it out, turn it in all in a matter of minutes. Interview a week later and boom I’ve got my hands in an industrial kitchen. The hospital was good for a bit, Continue reading →
After reading the Law of Attraction, my new practice to 1. Know what I want and 2. Ask for it. One of the things I ask for is to build and live in my dreams. What I have found is that dreams come by building. Brick by brick you lay the foundation. You put on the hard hat and you get to work. A big sign out front reads, “Warning: Dreams Under Construction.” Dreams take time. Houses take time to build (Rome wasn’t built in the day). There’s the stage of initially asking and then there is the time for allowance. Don’t stop building. You work each day to lay more bricks. It can be just one brick today, but that one brick brings you closer to the whole house.
Dream building can be small. I want to write a cookbook/I am writing a cookbook. Each day I Continue reading →