Knowing What You Want

Asking increases your chances of receiving. Subscribe: #Truthbomb #Words #QuotesAsk for what you want. The Universe. People. They’re not just going to guess that you want something. Go for it. Allow it. Voice it. Talk about it. Write it down. Be open to the possibilities you can create. The beautiful changes awaiting you. The twists in the road (and the bumps along the way). Be bold. Know what you want. Listen to your heart. Follow your intuition and fucking go for it. This is your life. Your one opportunity, why not believe in yourself? Believe in your vision? Believe in your dreams? Even if you come up short in some way, isn’t it better that you gave effort, than to wonder: what if……..
I read all the time about manifesting and yet it still amazes me every time I do it. No matter how small. If you desire it. If you ask. If you pray. If you stay committed to your conviction it will happen. Not always right away. Not always exactly how you envision, but if you’re going to ask, also be prepared to receive.
When I look at back now, I am in awe of the changes that have come the last year. The gradual little tweaks. The manifesting. The magic of staying committed, because often times I was told no once or twice before I got what I wanted. When I moved back to Indiana, I loved a coffee shop. I saw myself getting a job at this local little spot, living in an apartment down the street, doing my own baking, and living a simple little life with freedom and fun.
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This is It

 “Don’t live the same year 75 times and call it a life.” Robin Sharma

It’s funny that this popped up on my Pinterest board because I’ve been thinking along these lines lately. Recently I’ve had several conversations about safety and security. I’ve always been told I’m a dreamer. I’ve been told how/who to be. You’re smart, be a doctor. Do something where you make more money. Don’t ride your bide, drive. Or at least let me give you a ride. Don’t live in a shed. Don’t you want heat? Why are you going to California? Aren’t you scared? Are you really hiking by yourself? Why start your own business? Are you making money? Save for retirement. Maybe you need someone to bring you out of the clouds. You could do anything, are you sure this is what you want? Why change?

I believe in infinite possibilities. I believe in passion. I believe in taking risks. I believe in dreams. I believe in my dreams. I believe in me.

I am also afraid of delayed living. I am terrified to wake up when I’m 80 and realize I’ve live how I should, but feel completely unfulfilled. I’m afraid of not listening to my heart. To my intuition. I’m afraid of not falling in love. Of never knowing its pleasures and pain. I’m afraid of exchanging passion for mindless work and a paycheck. I’m afraid of not embracing those little moments. Kisses. Smiles. Laughter. My nephews. I’m afraid of missing out on life in the here and now. Of knowing there is a mountain out there calling my name and I never answered, because I was waiting…..waiting for everything to line up ‘perfectly’. But then perfect never comes. I’m afraid of smothering my creativity. Of editing to please everyone, rather than digging into my own imagination and letting the right people come to value what I have to offer. I’m afraid of letting my voice be stifled. Of remaining silent and let someone else narrate. Continue reading

Saying Yes to No

Living Well Spending Less™...reminds me of Chip Ingram's quote, "Busyness is satan's tool for a barren life."I’m so tired of the anthem, “I’m so busy.” Everything that’s on your plate is there because you said yes to it.

Recently Lululemon released this little gem of a video about giving presence this holiday season (something we should give everyday?). This quote came from the wildly brilliant Danielle LaPorte. I LOVE this quote. When my friends broke up with their boyfriends earlier this year, I thought and talked to them a lot about space (or time if you will). When someone leaves our lives there is a gap, a space opens up. How do you fill the void of time you spent with them? So when I think of it in that way, I also realize that we are constantly determining how to fill our space. We are deciding how we spend our time. Who is there. Where we go. What we do. How do you fill up your space? No one else is responsible for it but you. What are you creating? What are you saying yes to? What are you saying no to?

I agree with Danielle that we often glorify and applaud busyness. Especially this time of year, we are so busy getting ready for the Holiday, are we truly celebrating and enjoying it? Why? Why fill up our lives with a bunch of mindless check points? What if we did fewer things with more intention? With more mindfulness? What if we did things we are passionate about? What if we made space for people who fill us up? Who energize us? Who inspire us? Continue reading

Don’t Hold Back

You will always be too much of something for someone. Be yourself anyway. Subscribe: #Truthbomb #Words #Quotes“Don’t serve the world a water downed version of yourself.” ~Me, Brittany Paulin,  in one radical thought flow.

I sometimes feel guilty that I’m experiencing joy or being happy for happiness sake and no other reason than choice. I get/have gotten backlash in the past for being positive. The has sometimes led me to feel guilty when my ego has its way. Hiking the other day, I stopped: DO NOT HOLD BACK. Boom, it slammed into me, complete truth.

I’ll watch myself worrying. I’m too much. I’m too much energy. Too positive. Too laid back. Too creative. Too chill. I’ve got too many ideas. My style is too much. I laugh too much. I smile too much. Even the opposite end, I’m too quiet.

I notice it with my friends. I’m afraid I’ll overwhelm them. They’ve told me my energy is too much (just a couple of weeks ago shopping one of them brought it up). They’ve lectured me about riling up the dog. When I claim to be just chilling, I’m told, merely talking can create enthusiasm and excitement in my being. I confess it, often times I find myself bursting with energy and I actually end up taming it down or keeping it to myself, saving it for a later hike. Continue reading

What kind of baker are you?

Anais Nin Quote Made on Typewriter and Framed by farmnflea on Etsy, $12.00The other day at work one of my co-workers brought up the point that there are two types of bakers:

Bakers who follow recipes. And bakers who create their own thing.

Naturally I expanded this into a broader life-encompassing thought. Are we the baker who follows recipes? Do we adjust? Do we make them our own? Do we experiment? Do we just wing it? Do we measure? Do we make it our own? Do we put our own signature on it? I realized that even at the Pie Company we all had our own fluting or piping style, like our own little baking signatures. And so I think, what type of baker am I? Am I dynamic, and  a little of each?

Are we rule followers? Waiting on instructions? When I went to a zumba class and mom asked how it went: it was fine but if I’m going to dance I want to move according to how I feel. I want to do my own thing. Not be some sheep herded about. Letting people tell us where to step. How to move. Now I don’t mean to diss zumba but for me it doesn’t work. We let others guide us. We let society mold us. We go to work and let a boss tell us what to do. Part of the reason I went to college was because people told me I was too smart not to. My whole life others have felt the need to tell me what is best. Again I go back to the invisible Life Rule book that others are references, because I have never read it, especially when there are billions of people in the world, I would hope there would be billions of versions. That’s it for me: we all have our own individual purpose. We have to live that purpose. We have to express ourselves. Create. Create our life. Our own dreams. Continue reading

EveryBODY is Beautiful

“It’s taken a lot of effort, time, and energy but I can tell you there is nothing better than a) loving your body wholeheartedly, lumps and bumps and all. b) telling society where they can shove their ideals of beauty.” Taryn Brumfitt

What a freaking powerful statement. What a bold title. How many people believe in the beauty of the world? The beauty of the human body? The perfection of our own body? How scary and freeing that could be. I’ve struggled with body image for a long time. Only recently have I begun to look at it honestly. For over a decade my family ran a fitness center focused on weight loss. For ten years I watched myself yo-yo. Up and down. Up and down. I identified myself by my body- I felt constantly judged by my body. I judged myself by my body. I was told to lose weight- it’s not good for business. I strove so hard to be the perfect weight, the perfect size, the perfect body fat percentage. It was never enough- I was never enough. Even when I reached my goal, it still didn’t feel like enough. I developed major complexes. I felt like I was unlovable if I was  not skinnier. I developed dysfunctional relationships with food. With the way I dressed. With my body. I hated eating in front of others. I felt guilty for eating, period, after a point. How do you come back from the self-loathing? How do you develop a healthy relationship with your body? How can you love yourself alone at home, and out in public, in the streets? How do I balance being a spiritual person in a physical world? How do I love myself today as I am ?

Dr. Dyer talks about planes. Most of us never leave the physical world we live in. We see value in physical looks, how much money we have, how much stuff we’ve collected, the size of our homes, our jobs. We let what we have define us. How limited. Are we not more than what your see? Are we not more than a number on a scale? More than a number on a bank account? What if we shift our way of thinking?

Today I look in the mirror and look for the good. What a stunning girl! What a beautiful, healthy, strong, flexible body I see looking back at me. What strong legs, which can carry me on a 3 hour hike. Legs that have climbed mountains. Legs that pedal for miles on my bike to get me where I need to go. Legs that have rocked Continue reading

Time: How do you spend it?

Embrace it and live life to the fullest. You can do this, brave one. #life #recovery #inspirationalI have been thinking a lot about time lately. What a precious, magical gift we’ve been given. Am I taking advantage of the short time I’ve been given in this physical life? If I’m being honest the answer is no. The next question then is how do I want to spend my time?

How easily we can get sucked into mindless, frivolous activities. Hours spent watching t.v. series. How dwindled away dicking around on the computer. Time we spent not thinking positively or about our dreams. Hours spent doing things that are not in our passion circle. Delaying something for another time. I will workout tomorrow. The only moment guaranteed to us, is this present time. Why don’t you go dip into a yoga class or hit a trail. Why not start writing your book today. The most inspiring tales begin by starting. We all begin at page 1. Why not work on page 1, chapter 1 now? Why not call up your friends and get together? Why do we feel entitled to an endless supply of time? Because we’re afraid? I have quite a few tattoos and one of the ones on my ribcage says:

Don’t fear death, fear life unlived.

Clearly I am of the mind and I want to remind myself, that I am more afraid of not living than I am of dying. This honestly is my biggest fear: existing. Never going for it. Never starting to create my dreams (actually never even starting the process of dreaming, how many people I’ve met who are too afraid even to dream). Never telling people I love them. Never feeling the bliss of truly living. The miracle of presence.

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BE Present

Being present | #Anxiety Self HelpI make it my intention to go to yoga every Tuesday morning. As I sat during the beginning of class this morning, Tammy encourages us: set an intention for this practice. Initially I go through my usual: do your best. But today I got a BIG flashing sign in my brain saying: BE PRESENT. I think this is one of the greatest gifts we can give ourselves, presence in our lives. Surrendering to the present moment. Allowing ourselves to let go. Allowing our bodies to flow effortlessly. Allowing our breathing to come naturally.  Allowing our thoughts to flow instinctively. Listening to our heart and soul now. Feeling the perfection of this moment. The potential.

This moment right now is what we have. Be in it! Taste and smell and touch and see what a beautiful day it is. Let that sign flash and remind you. Post it. I frequently post notes to myself on my wall to: be more present. Begin now in this moment.

The Gift of Gratitude

You think this is just another day in your life. It’s not just another day. It’s the one day that is given to you today. It’s given to you. It’s a gift. It’s the only gift that you have right now. And the only appropriate response is gratefulness. If you do nothing else but to cultivate that response to the great gift that this unique day is, if you learn to respond as if it were the first day in your life and the very last day, then you will have spent this day very well.

Begin by opening your eyes and be surprised that you have eyes you can open, that incredible array of colors that is constantly offered to us for our pure enjoyment. Look at the sky. We so rarely look at the sky. We so rarely note how different it is from moment to moment with clouds coming and going. We just think of the weather and even of the weather we don’t think of all the many nuances of weather. We just think of good weather and bad weather. This day right now is unique weather, maybe a kind that will never exactly in that form come again. The formation of clouds in the sky will never be the same that is right now. Open your eyes. Look at that.

And in this present moment on this day all the people you meet, all that life from generations and from so many places all over the world flows together and meets you here like a life-giving water if you only open your heart and drink.

So these are just a few of an enormous number of gifts to which we can open your heart. So I wish you that you would open your heart to all these blessings and let them flow through you, that everyone whom you will meet on this day will be blessed by you, just by your eyes, by your smile, by your touch. Just by your presence. Let the gratefulness overflow into blessing all around you. Then it will really be a good day.

I thought the other day of getting rid of this site. I thought I could do with some simplifying in my life. Maybe I should just focus on building my Delish site. Then I watched SuperSoul yesterday and I found this gem. The beauty and inspiration of this video nearly makes me want to cry. This is how I want to live. To see the blessing and gift of each day, each moment, each person. I want to see this world. I am grateful. And when I think of the major passions I have in my life: writing, hiking and cooking, I know I want to do more of them. So I don’t need to simplify. I need to prioritize for my passions. I need to use my time to write everyday. Because sharing positive videos like this is something that feels good to my soul. It allows me to express myself. To show the beauty I see everyday, in my life, in the day, in Nature, in my senses, in my thoughts, in my heart.

So back to this video. I fully encourage you to google Louie Swartzberg. His videos and photos are breathtaking. I’m having a hard time sitting here to write because they make me want to go outside right now. It’s rainy so what. It makes me want to takes today’s gift of rain and experience. Play in the mud. Dance in the rain. I want to explore. I want to travel. I want to feel. I want to feel apart of this world. I want to be in awe. I want to see the world. It does make me feel grateful. Each morning I wake up, I am thankful for waking. For another day. Another gift. What do I want to do with today? What do I want to create? Who will I meet? What will the day bring? What can I bring to the day? Gratitude has been my savior the past years. When I feel down. When I’m struggling. When I feel like I’ve fallen. When I can’t get beyond the present moments challenges. When I want to give up. When I want to feel sorry for myself. I pause. Breathe. And then I remember what all I have. That thankfulness brings the light back out. Wow how great it is to be alive.

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Check Yourself

"Heart to heart conversations are the best to me.  Everyone's vulnerable.  Vulnerability attracts honesty, honesty attracts soul connections.“REAL” This word gets to me. “I don’t like all that deep thinking shit….I’m real.” (what someone told me once) Reality is what you make it for one. But also realness is digging deep. It’s talking to yourself. It’s lighting yourself with passion and blazing a trail of purpose. It’s about authenticity. It’s about true nature. It’s about tough conversations. Conversations with others and with YOURSELF. It’s easy to cloud ourselves in excuses, so we’re in a haze of numbness. How easy it is to tell others how to live, but how often do we confront ourselves?  How do we give ourselves the pep talk or the scold? How often do we face our behaviors? Our thoughts?

I’m a fan (shocker) of getting REAL with yourself then. Take an inventory check? What kinds of vibrations are you putting out there? How are you spending your time? What are you doing for your health? What are you doing to relax and let go? Are you meditating? What are you doing for others? What are you doing for your dreams? Are you building? Where you loving today? Did you tell your truth? Did you tell others how you felt? Are you being authentic? Are you being kind? Loving? Are you doing your best?

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